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Subject: Re: A narcisistic reflection

Author: Zheng Zhixian

Date: 05:56:36 12/07/05

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On December 06, 2005 at 19:57:36, Fernando Villegas wrote:

>I am frankly amazed of everything you have said.

I'm amazed that you are amazed. Self insight is indeed the hardest thing to
achieve. Even for one who  sets himself up as an objective commenter of the
world and the mostly foolish people in it, is not immune to being blind to his
own flaws.

>By example, that I am reveling
>in my importance. From where did you deduce or perceive such a thing? So if I
>have an opinion expressed, perhaps in strong terms, as many does, then it means
>I am feeling great and over important?

There are opinions and there are opinions. In your opinion, people who disagree
with you is 'myoptic' and 'sanctinmous' and all besides.  Is that correct? But
If anyone else says that of you it's a personal attack, or maybe a
misunderstanding. It can't be that they are right ?

And as for my point about your super size ego, it's preety much obvious from the
way you negatively label people who disagree with you. On a more scientific
note, you can easily see that by looking at the proportions of threads you start
as a percentage of your posts. Yours is pretty much higher than norm. That's one
of the reasons why I noticed you BTW, since you are essentially an attention
seeker, and a very good one at that.

And it gets worse if you look at the content of the threads you start. People
start threads to draw attention to themselves yes, but most are content to talk
about their tests about computer chess in general ,what they are doing etc but
not you, that's not enough.

Your threads are meant to lampoon others, to lecture others. Deny that if you
dare. In other words your threads and posts are all 'meta discussions'. Are you
here to discuss computer chess, or are you here to comment on the foolishness
and myopia of people in general? Only someone who has a super sized ego will
even think of setting himself up in such a position.

Rolf used Steen as a jumping board to show how foolish the forum as a whole is.
But at least he was pointing to a real phenomena which had some basis in fact,
Steen was indeed causing an uproar in the forum. And people were upset.

You use a small thread abour Rybka where one or two people responded, and
created a myth that everyone on the board was hypocritical. And as it turned
out, that was hardly a fact, since a lot of other people did email to help,
before it was clear Rybka was special.

That's typical of your posting style really, make up facts or interprete them in
a biased way and use it to lecture people. Like for example, talking about how
chess programs were so weak in the early CC days, that clubplayers prayed for
stronger opponents!

In fact your posting characteristics fit that of trolls, you are a big attention
seeker. The difference if any between a troll and you, is that you are usually
sincere about what you say despite the joking manner. And yes you want to draw a
reaction (which you admit in the above thread) too like most trolls, but I think
you do believe in what you say, while a troll will say anything just to get a
reaction.


>No logical, just an speculation nurtured by bad will from your part.

Yes, everything is about me. 'Bad will', misunderstanding, lack of logic, right
now you might probably be wondering why I'm so myoptic?

And the Fernado himself does not engage in speculation about intentions about
people posting in a thread about Rybka.

>Then you say I am one of those trying to say the last word.
>What does it means?
>In a debate it is in the nature of the thing to discuss your point until you
>feel you are satisfied in a way or another. It is also in the nature of
>politeness to answer what the other guy say. I know there are some people here
>and in CFT that simple does not answer; in a sudden they leave you hanging in
>the middle of everything and the impression they give is that they feel too much
>important and superior to continue debating with you.

You are right, of course everyone naturally wants to win an argument. But there
are others who go way beyond that, who continue on and on, even when it's
obvious it's a waste of time since neither side will budge. BTW you are hardly
unique in this.

>I am not one of those.

Fernando, I bet you don't like it, when other people start labelling you yes?
Even when it's barely negative.Now think about how others feel when you label
them in far worse terms.

But that's different, because you are right?

I feel the other guy deserves an answer. And I am
>interested in make my point clear. That's the reason I write all this without
>even an atom of hope you will agre in nothing.

Exactly, my point if you think that I have 'no atom of hope' that I will
understand this, why are you replying? Any sensible person who thinks he can
make no headway will stop. Or realise it's not worth arguing. Is it really so
important what a stranger on the net thinks of you? Someone with a strong ego,
would say yes, he needs to defend his honor.

I too have no atom of hope as you put it that you will come to realise what I
say is not just because of 'bad will' or 'misunderstanding' or whatever you come
up with just to avoid admitting that what I say reflects the truth. Or at least
parts of it. I have no hope at all you will go away, learning something
important about yourself from this.

>Because it seems you see anything I do as a show of self importance, lecturing, etc. Then you say -because you does not accept nothing- that when I tend to lose my patience is because I believe to be one of the few that know it all and that I am one "who under the guise of jokes think they are the ones blessed with the
>vision..."
>Why you say "under the guise"?

Take a look at the title of this thread in which you started for example.
It *is* a narcisistic reflection. Knowing this you named it as such to head off
criticism. How can someone critise you for that, if you admit it , right? That a
typical ploy you use.

>Why do you interpret a joke or jokingly manner as a guise?

Because it is later borne out when you are challenged seriously. You get all
fluffed up to defend your honor. Heck you even admit that often you get angry at
people for being myoptic or not seeing the truth (as you see it).

Which is surprising come to think of it. A survey of your posts will show it
seems that on the surface at least you are always joking. At best you get
serious, but never show your anger.

Natural Conclusion drawn, you are usually angry when others disagree, but you
have learnt to hide it under the surface with jokes.


>How do you know?

It's a common debating technique to ask 'how do you know' to confuse the issue,
because when it comes down to it, no-one can be 100% sure what is happening. Not
even in science. Much less in this area.

And yet, often the person making this arguement, can be happily found in another
thread interpreting comments anyway he sees fit and using it as a means to
lecture others.

Here's an example People making joking about the name small fish, is now a
hypocrite for example because the intent logically is to dimiss the claim.It
can't be he's just joking because the meaning of the name naturally draws such
jokes.

And yes, said person will also happily claim he is not consistent. Yet another
defense mechanism against critism.


>There are you again, doing interpretations from the point of view of the worst
>light posible to do the job.

A funny comment comming from you. You next to Rolf , are one of the masters of
presenting and using selective interpretations to label others. Being someone in
the media field might have something to do with that.

Though of course it's less fun when you are the subject isn't it?

>This is not a sychological game: it is an obsession.

Yes, when others do it to you it's an obsession. But when you do it to members
of CCC, it's just a harmless game. :)


 You read any of my words or
>acts in such a nasty manner. If I joke, is "under the guise of it" and then you
>guess the "real intent" under the jokes. And so and so.

That is the nature of interpretition and it can be subject to revision. You are
one of the masters of it yourself, but that doesn't mean you are the only one
who has the skill to do it.

Besides the fact is at times you accidently reveal your true motivies on here
and on CTF

Boasts about playing psychological games.
Admissions of the anger you feel towards people you label myoptic and
sanctimonous.
Talks about foolishness of people in general...

Etc.. I can get the exact quotes if you like, but I'm sure you know what I'm
referring to.

>For me it is very clear: for some reason simply you does not like me at all.

Yes, I do not like you at all. And the reason is obvious, I have already stated
them. And it is dislike based on concrete reasons. It does not make such resons
illusionary. People can fully accept that you have the problems I say you have
and still don't mind.

>am disagreable for you. I bother you. So, then, in YOUR vision, I masquerade
>under the jokes, I lecture people, I do not grasp concepts, etc.

Yes in my vision. And that evidently is a problem for you. Why? Can't take the
heat when your weapons are turned towards you? YOUR vision is the only right
one?

BTW I don't think you don't grasp conceptS (as opposed to one concept), I think
you are however having problems when people pay you back in your own coin.

>Ok, so it be. You have right to like or dislike people. Sometimes it happens
>someone dislike us just because.

Not just 'because'. For concrete and real reasons already mentioned.

> OK, but do not confound your organic, elemental
>dislike with a mighty reading of the Bible and correctness.

I lay no claim to 100% correctness. I do think my points are roughly on the
mark. Just like you do with your critisims of others. Even YOU don't lay claim
to bible correctness I suspect.

>Read your own posts, Zheng, and cath the tone.

I'm well aware of my posts. It takes serious effort to craft such posts in such
strong harsh language for me. And I have already said I freely admit I'm using
the exact same weapons as you. But sometimes you have to fight fire with fire to
let the fire user get a taste of his own medicine. Mixing metaphors!

Besides for me to encourage you to look at your own posts, obviously I look at
mine. But Are you aware of yours? Do you look at the tone of yours? Or are you
so sure of the correctness of your points that you feel free to call other
myotic, or their interestes trival , just because you don't share them?

Are you so wrapped up in your own view point and ego that just because you are
joking (at least so you tell yourself), it isn't an insult to others? That It is
your intent alone that counts and what others perceive doesn't matter?

That in the name of the pyschological game you admit you play, you aren't
unwittingly indulging in your superority complex?

This is where I bail out of this thread. You can interprete it as me being too
superior and arrogant to engage further with you if you like, it doesn't matter
to me.  For me it's simply a recognition that it is pointless to carry on
further, if it's a waste of time.

After all it's *my* interpretion and intent of my actions alone that counts,
just as a insult is actually a joke because you intended it as one. :)




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