Author: Graham Laight
Date: 18:01:37 09/06/00
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On September 06, 2000 at 18:40:49, Marc van Hal wrote: >Why do I always get someone on my back or get neglacted >When I talk about my work >And why do I have to prove my self over and over again that my work was not >generated only by computerprograms >and even that games wich where played by top GM's origenaly where my anelyzes >(the prove is here just search out all my posting and you shall see I am right > >And is it not so that I contributed something to computerches aswell >I am always trying to help as much as I can but then later on get punished for >this >Ok I know that I am always make glory of my work (because no one else does wich >already hurts me) You need to develop a thick skin in this sport. More than any other sport I know, people get up-tight about small things in computer chess. At the WMCCC in London, when Crafty started to play the same opening against Fritz as it had done previously against Nimzo (which it later, thankfully, varied), Vincent, Marcus and Mathius all started shouting at me! Other spectators were quite astonished - one said we seemed to take our game very seriously (people playing other games (including non-computer chess) at the event all seemed happy and serene by comparison). He also advised me to get some valium for next year's competition! Although this was the last round, and so people were more uptight than usual, it is certainly true that chess programmers are not the world's most sensitive people! My advice would be to find one of Vincent's posts and reply in a ruthless manner - tearing every point he makes to shreds. It will make you feel much better, restore your self esteem, and make you one of the most popular posters in CCC - all in one go! :) >Ok I know I will get some laughs here but I am seriousely depresed in such a >way it controls my life and not even able to get a job because I am mentaly >deeply tired and have extremly sleep disturbings >And don't trust any one any more (so I am a prisoner in my one house) >And believe me this are not only words but the sad treuth > >Or what have I what have I what have I done to deserve this? >? Remember also that depression can be alleviated by medicines - e.g. prozac, or St John's wort (which can be bought without prescription from health stores). Finally, it is important for depressed people to stay active. It might help if you ensure that you walk a couple of miles a day. And as you go, count the chimneys on the buildings - this forces you to look upwards, and even changing your posture helps to relieve depression (depressed people tend to look down as they walk). Hope this helps. -g
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