Author: Paulo Soares
Date: 02:53:34 09/07/00
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On September 06, 2000 at 18:40:49, Marc van Hal wrote: >Why do I always get someone on my back or get neglacted >When I talk about my work >And why do I have to prove my self over and over again that my work was not >generated only by computerprograms >and even that games wich where played by top GM's origenaly where my anelyzes >(the prove is here just search out all my posting and you shall see I am right > >And is it not so that I contributed something to computerches aswell >I am always trying to help as much as I can but then later on get punished for >this >Ok I know that I am always make glory of my work (because no one else does wich >already hurts me) > > >Ok I know I will get some laughs here but I am seriousely depresed in such a >way it controls my life and not even able to get a job because I am mentaly >deeply tired and have extremly sleep disturbings >And don't trust any one any more (so I am a prisoner in my one house) >And believe me this are not only words but the sad treuth > >Or what have I what have I what have I done to deserve this? >? Marc, I have 50 years old, and I have depression since 18 years. My depression is organic (chemistry), and only with 32 years I got to know which my disease. From that time (32 years of age) I began to take medicines to improve. I am married 25 years ago, I have 3 children(23, 22 and 18 years), and I work as structural engineer. My life today is normal, I have the same problems that all the people have. I also went inside prisoner of my own house, I didn't get to know which the purpose of the life. I remember that I passed badly when I leaves house, I had lack of air and I felt lost, besides having several phobia types. Depression is a terrible disease, but the medicine already gets to control. I know that it is difficult for you to believe in the one that I am writing, I remember that I didn't believe that I could improve when I had depression crises, but you can _believe_, our problem has solution. Today, besides taking the medicines, I make therapy 2 times a month. Make a consultation with a specialist doctor, and in some days you will be good of health. Good luck!!! Paulo Soares, from Brazil, a person that believes the best way to improve anything is firstly _to accept the realities of the life_.
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