Author: Fernando Villegas
Date: 20:07:03 12/21/97
Hi all concerned: Now that seems KK has received a severe mauling from many, including me, it is time to put things in order. No Don, is not the "great journalist" that is writting now, just a poor guy that feel himself ashamed and try to fix a couple of things. So let me say this: the first thing to put in order is to recall how many times we have done a big shit in this field, not to mention in others a lot more important that "chess computers". Heaven Father, I confess: not many time ago I wrote too early and without enough information an article about Hiarcs 6 that was completely wrong. And then, recently, I wrote another about MCP7 where, even If my target was mostly the DOS platform, in some degree I hurted also Marty. Should I recall more total or partial mistakes from my part of from another people, including some of you out there? May I recall the harsh expressions that have been said here because some people did not give to themselves a bit more of time to ponder? I know that saying all this I am showing a great side to "friendly" fire. "First you shoot and then you pray for the victims", some can say. Or they can say or just think "stupid". Well, I am one of them many times. Most of the time, specially here. Yes, maybe something happens to all us just coming here, to this site; then we forget our real lives as pros or just human beings and we become children trying to do noise or write something in the board to claim some attention. We want to be here, to be part of this and then ocassionally we write a little bit in a hurry. One day is KK, another day it's me, another day is anyone. The first stone cannot be throwed by nobody. Shouldn't. Even more, beyond the mistakes there is something very sad in all this, you see, grown-ups behaving like children at least part of the time. Maybe it happens that in front of a screen we forget that at the other side there is a real human being. And it's so easy for educated people to find poisonous words, sarcastics expressions, witty comments! So, thinking in all that, thinking how many times I have enjoyed KK articles, thinking in the support any one can get from him, anytime, for FREE, thinking that he is like me, a guy that simply satisfy some part of his ego doing all this here, I confess that I feel somewhat ashamed that I was part of the bunch. If KK is reading this, I ask from him his pardon: he -nobody- deserve so much attacks, reasonings, critics, sarcasm and the rest just because he played too hard the role of a journalist. That is nothing: many of us have performed too hard the role of the guys with a rope, crying in excitment because a poor fellow would be hanged. At the end all of us perform ridiculous or childish roles here, except perhaps the people that gets some money from this. They are real and sometimes I imagine how they surely laugh. Yes, Ed is also real, he win or lose money because of what is said, as Marty or Chris. OK, so KK screw it a little bit. Ok, not the big deal after all. And now, free of all this, you can say what you want. Chris, you are here the master of irony; I put my hopes in your comments. Don, push the trigger. I don't care. Even If I had some reason in my comments from a pure rational point of view, they were lacking of real and deep understanding and a sane -or insane you could say, my masochist side, etc- part of me want to be punished. It has been sad to realize that a club of supposed friends begun to be a slaughterhouse as soon as somebody fall. And more sad to realize how easily I have been pushed by myself to do the same. Good night all and good bye. Fernando
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