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Subject: Re: An apology to all for my recent tone in the O(f(n)) postings

Author: Fernando Villegas

Date: 11:26:16 05/09/01

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Dann:
I know that this is not my business; I do not even know which are the post
involved, but as we have had some harsh collisions from time to time I feel some
right to tell you what follows after these lines with the best of the feelings
and almost praying you will not consider it as one of those things that push
your red button.

Point is, Dann, you have no patience. BTW, patience is not just to tolerate what
we think are other peoples's mistakes, but to tolerate ourselves and our heavy
load of mistakes. In fact, impatience with other faults tends to arise from our
own faults. I have experimented that many times. I get almost mad when I miss
something or play a bad move or so; I cannot tolerate mistakes as If i was God.
That's stupid, of course. My behaviour, yours and in fact the entire world
history, is made out of mistakes. Is the ocean where we swim all day.

How to overcome it? I have made that question to myself many times and I tended
to answer with a paradox of the kind of Catch 22 movie: to be patient requires a
lot of trainning, so involves patience, so... But it is not that way. Some
little exercizes helps a lot to decrease your level of stamina Mine is very
simple to do: I drive my car soooooooooo slowly that I get a lot of obscenes
gestures and insults from other drivers and then the exercize consist in not
giving them even a glance. Besides, the sheer fact to drive slow gives you a
serene attitude of the kind "what matters if I am here in the vector of time and
space or one kilometer and five minutes away of this point". Incredible how the
atmosphere of detachment you get that way permeate the rest of your life.

I hope you will not push that bottom after all.

My best
fernando



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